My oldest daughter sees me get up every morning before anyone else and I sit with my coffee and my daily devotions. Just enjoying some quiet time, starting off my day with Jesus. Normally that’s enough and I get off on the right foot for the day.
Today that wasn’t the case. My mind was so preoccupied with something (someone) else that I wasn’t craving the time with Jesus, I was craving news from this other person in my life. So, I struggled all day long. I spent much of the day feeling like I failed, that I had taken 50 steps back and now it’s going to be that much longer before this person will speak with me. It’s very hard on me when I want to make someone happy or have a relationship with them but I keep getting in my own way.
Well, as I said my daughter sees me doing my “bible study” time, as she calls it, and asked me the other night if maybe we could do it together today. Of course the other night I was doing good spiritually so I said sure! Well, this morning I wasn’t feeling up to it. So I told her we’d do it later in the day. Afternoon rolls around, I’m still not feeling it. I’m too busy searching for my own answers in the bible to have her interruptions.
The usual chaos of the day surrounds us as I have 5 kids inside half the time because of thunderstorms. The baby now has this super annoying scream….nothing wrong, she just screams at me…LOUDLY!! The other kids are running around making each other mad so they’re all loud and whiny. I can’t concentrate!
Finally, supper time! We are nearly there! After the kids are washed up and in PJs my oldest asks me again, as she keeps inching her bibles and a story about Noah closer and closer to me, if I know what a good time will be. I get my tea perked and I get my bible back out and sit down. I didn’t know what to expect from a bible study with a 7 year old, but I’m glad I did it. There was no rhyme or reason to the stories she picked out, but I’ve learned that sometimes the random messages usually work out to be the ones I need to hear. As I read the stories and the bible passages that went with them I could hear Jesus clearing his throat at me. Getting ready to cut me a big ‘ol serving of crow.
After each reading, she would fold her hands in front of her on the table and look at me intently and ask “Now what does this mean?” So I explain to her what we read meant and how we are to be, according to God’s and Jesus’ word. She would then exclaim “Wow! You know everything about the bible!!”
“I don’t know everything sweetie. I know a little, and it’s really hard sometimes to do the right thing. But that’s why I sit and I study it, so maybe I can be better at it next time.”Tags: Bible, children, Distance, faith, God First, Hard Times, Jesus First, Relationships, Searching, Seeking, Study, Valley
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